We finally have rain! The grass and my remaining tulips (which are just about to bloom, so stay away, you buffalos!) have been begging for it for some time; it was a relief to hear the rain spattering against my window as I went to bed last night.
What was NOT a relief, was the fact that the TV antenna on top of our house somehow got loose yesterday evening. It seems to be barely hanging on to the roof, and I have disconnected the cable for fear of some fluke-y kind of fire. I can’t get to it without also getting onto the roof, which just seems like a bad idea while it’s raining.
I’ve finally been able to get more work done today, which is a relief, as well. I credit this to clearing my mind of some garbage that has been accumulating for a while. Specifically, a ridiculous and impossible crush I developed some time ago. Ridiculous since I LOVE my husband and have no intention of replacing him, and impossible because I believe in staying faithful in my marriage. So it has been a rather uncomfortable place in my head. Really, I felt like a "silly schoolgirl" again, which isn’t as fun as it sounds!
[This isn’t the first time this has happened, and Shannon says this is the type of problem that Scorpios have. But I couldn’t get her to elaborate on that, so I have no clue what that’s supposed to mean!]
One thing that has helped is actually talking it over with Michael who said he figured it was a problem only if I actually acted on my feelings. What a wonderfully understanding husband I have! No wonder I plan to keep him.
I remember once reading a passage in some version of the Bible that said thinking about committing adultery is just as bad as actually doing it; but maybe it meant "intending" to commit adultery is just as bad as doing it. Anyway, Catholic that I am, I had tremendous feelings of guilt, and so this blog entry is meant as a kind of catharsis. I suppose I’m really not guilty of anything other than some foolishness . . .
It all just makes me wish for a magic potion of some kind; while half the world wishes they could find a way to make people fall in love, I think I need something that could turn it off! Anyhow, it feels like the rain is helping to clean out my mind, so bring it on!
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