House Concert Debrief

12 May

Waking up this morning wasn’t much fun; Jade was crying and my nose and throat were parched and sore.  I’ve had a lot of colds in the past year, but most of the time I’ve had just a runny nose and a little fatigue.  Rarely have I had a cough, too, as I have today, rattling deep in my chest.

Never mind, I had a great time at the YWIM fundraising house concert on Saturday night, so I’ll try to think about that instead.  I came away completely awed by the musical talent we have here, and also grateful that I was slated as the second performer or I might have completely lost my nerve after listening to everyone else.

As I mentioned in my previous post, tickets were $25 each, which, to be honest, I thought might be a bit steep for the type of event.  But then, I’ve never been to a YWIM concert before.  Good thing I wasn’t in charge, because the concert sold out and there were no tickets left at the door!  And even if there hadn’t been copious amounts of cheese, crackers, wine, and desserts, I’m still sure that everyone would have left feeling they had got their money’s worth.

My friend Caroline Watt was also performing; I asked her to get my performance on video, which she kindly agreed to do (which she may have regretted, because her arms got pretty tired from holding the darned thing up for 12 minutes!)

Watching a video of your own performances can be rather painful, I must say.  It’s easy to nit-pick at details and wish things had been done differently.  I know that overall I did okay, although nerves made me rush a bit.  (What is with the nerves?  It seems I have become more easily frazzled in the last couple of years.  Although performing stuff I’ve written myself is definitely a lot more intimidating than doing covers.  It feels so much more revealing.)  The piano to voice balance on the video is a bit off, but I think that was mostly because Caroline was sitting right next to the amp.

Twelve minutes of video is a bit too long to post, so I broke it up into the three individual songs.  There was a little more banter in between than what I’ve posted, but the important parts are there: the good, the bad, and the <insert-your-own-adjective-here>.

One Tear (3:22)

This song was based on a really short poem (three lines) I wrote in high school that is still somehow a favourite of mine.  You can hear Caroline telling me to turn down the piano at the beginning of this song, and I sort of flub things up as I am trying to comply.  No one else would know, but I sang the wrong words and put in an extra pause that I didn’t want because I didn’t move into the verse at the right time (being distracted).  But that’s the fun of live performance!

Lullaby for Mama (3:49)

As I say in the video, I wrote this song for some friends who were rewarded with having twins after trying to get pregnant for a long time.  It’s written from the perspective of one of the babies and made me bawl like one the first time I played it through after I wrote it.  Caroline, who did harmonies with me when I played it for my friend, also cried the first time she heard it.  I was actually feeling a wee bit hormonal when I started performing it, and had to tell myself to not think about what I was singing.  Which is both a good thing (not breaking into tears!) and bad thing to do when you’re trying to convey emotions in a performance.

Under my Skin (4:30)

This was the song I mentioned in my earlier blog post that I was nervous about performing; well, it just doesn’t seem like the kind of song a happily married woman should sing (not to mention write).  In the video, I talk a bit about the sentiment behind it, but I forget to mention that when I played it for Michael earlier in the evening, he said he liked it.  Even so, when I played it at the concert, I was getting hot and self-conscious.  You can see me breathe a sigh of relief at the end.  As I went back to my seat, I was fanning myself and I said to BJ MacLean, “Whew, I got so hot playing that last song.”  She made me laugh when she said, “I think everyone did.”

 

Sigg water bottleSo, did you notice that I wore my party shoes?  I figured since they were out, I might as well actually wear them, and I do love them so!  Barb Chamberlin, who was emceeing, commented that she wondered how I’d got my shoes to match my water bottle.  I didn’t even realize they did, but she was right.  Ha ha ha!  [Photo stolen from here: http://www.smartbride.com.au/bridal/sleepwear/SIGG%20Water%20Bottles/0/ ]

Normally when I post my songs, I post my lyrics along with them, but that would make this post really long, and it really is already rather longish, isn’t it?  But I can’t resist, so I’m adding them, but tucking them under the fold here.  Just click on “Continue Reading” if you want to see them.

One Tear

One tear fell here
Where love has bloomed and love has died
You lied, I cried
My whole world crumbles

You’re a difficult creature
But I had you tamed for a while
You hoped for our future
But I knew I wasn’t your style
Still I hoped I’d do you good
Hoped I’d do you good

One tear fell here
Where love has bloomed and love has died
One word one line
My whole world crumbles

I thought I was beautiful
But I can’t remember why
At least I am hopeful
The least you can do is try
Well, I thought I did you good
Thought I did you good
Yes I thought I did you good
Thought I did you good

One tear fell here
Where love has bloomed and love has died
One sigh goodbye
My whole world crumbles

We’re only here for an instant
And our lives touched just for a breath
Did I think you’d be constant
Jumping in not knowing the depth
Well I hope I did you good
Hope I did you good
Yeah I hope I did you good
Hope I did you good

Stay on the straight and narrow
Stay straight as an arrow
Look me straight in the eye
You decide if you live or die

One tear fell here
Where love has bloomed and love has died
One cry one lie
My whole world crumbles
My whole world crumbles
My whole world crumbles

— November 2007, Copyright © Fawn Fritzen 2008

Lullaby for Mama

We started off so small
Just a spark, just a whisper
You grew inside my heart
Grew a flame from an ember
And now we’ve grown so strong
We know where we belong
Together here are we
And always will be

You are my shelter
You are my home
You are my always
You are my own
(repeat)

I do not know your face
But your voice is an echo
I know you in my bones
In my flesh, in my marrow
And soon we will be free
For everyone to see
Together we will go
And always be so

You are my shelter
You are my home
You are my always
You are my own
(repeat)

I long to know your smile
It’s the sun, it’s a rainbow
Your love warms everything
Today and tomorrow
And you will hold my hand
Go running through the sand
Together now are we
And always will be

You are my shelter
You are my home
You are my always
You are my own
(repeat)

You are my shelter
You are my home

— July 2007, Copyright © Fawn Fritzen 2008

Under my Skin

I’ve got you
I’ve got you
I’ve got you under my skin
I feel you
I breathe you
I taste you when I’m with him

I haven’t slept in a month or a year
Finding excuses for my distance
If you feel the same it’s no good to me here
Wish I could give up this dance
‘Cause now

I’ve got you
I’ve got you
I’ve got you under my skin
I feel you
I breathe you
I taste you when I’m with him

An innocent dream of a flirt or a fling
Takes every moment of thought
I’ve done all I can to get over this thing
But still even still I am caught
‘Cause still

I’ve got you
I’ve got you
I’ve got you under my skin
I feel you
I breathe you
I taste you when I’m with him

You’re in my blood, my fevered brain
You’re in my sweat, and the tears that I rain
Everything’s gray since the day you appeared
Admit or deny it, both ways it’s a sin that

I’ve got you
I’ve got you
I’ve got you bad under my skin
I feel you
I breathe you
I taste you when I’m with him

I’ve got you
I’ve got you
I’ve got you under my skin

— February 2008, Copyright © Fawn Fritzen 2008

10 Responses to “House Concert Debrief”

  1. Chris May 12, 2008 at 3:27 pm #

    Beautiful Fawn! You sound great and look great too!! (Love the party shoes 🙂 You are definitely very talented!

  2. Janet May 12, 2008 at 5:38 pm #

    Now I’m really kicking myself for not making the time to go. What a beautiful voice you have (both in terms of what comes out of your mouth and what comes out of your pen). And no, I don’t believe we have met before, but I’m sure we will at some point soon.

  3. Ripplebbliss May 12, 2008 at 7:18 pm #

    Gorgeous, Fawn! I love “Under my skin!” Sexy, yet innocent at the same time.
    You are so talented, and your music, compositions and voice are all maturing like a fine wine…

  4. Beanie May 13, 2008 at 8:23 am #

    Fawny, you have such a warm voice – I love it! However, I also love your shoes. You should write and sing a song about your shoes. For that would make this world a better place.😉

  5. kara May 13, 2008 at 7:31 pm #

    Wowie! That is awesome! I sound like a dying cow when I sing. Wish we lived closer to Whitehorse so I could see you sing in person.

    Just saw your comment from a few posts back about my baby booties. I just put a bunch in the visitor centre here for between $45 and $65 a pair depending on the type of material. A store in WH wants to sell them, but they will double the price! Ouch!! Hurray for rich americans, I guess!

    I have heard that WH has really good craft fairs before Christmas, I think I will come in then too and try and sell them.

  6. Foolery May 15, 2008 at 12:23 pm #

    Hi Fawn — what a beautiful clear and open voice you have! And singing while playing is NOT easy. I’ve tried and I stink.

    Thanks for the comments on my blog today; sorry you stopped in for the first time on a downer day, but I’ll be lighter and more fun soon.🙂

    — Laurie @ Foolery

  7. Jos & bob May 15, 2008 at 7:01 pm #

    First time i have heared your voice. I have heared all about it.
    God you have a fabulous voice.
    You rock Fawn.
    Jos

  8. Stranger May 16, 2008 at 4:39 am #

    “Watching a video of your own performances can be rather painful…”
    Painful, Why ????
    You are perfect. Your voice is wonderful, your piano
    playing failureless, and you are a f**g georgous mother!
    What’s the problem ?

  9. McMommy May 16, 2008 at 10:36 am #

    Oh Fawn!!! Your voice is truly beautiful!!! A sweet sweet gift to US…thank you for sharing the videos!!

    p.s. Were those your fabulous blue silk shoes??!!

  10. fawnahareo May 17, 2008 at 2:19 pm #

    Thanks, everyone! Stranger, you’re making me blush. But no performance is ever perfect, and I still have some strains of perfectionism left in me, although much of it has been banished by the whole working mother lifestyle. (Standards had to drop somewhere, and the somewhere was with my housekeeping, which still leaves me free to nit-pick over my performance details. ;))

    McMommy – yes, those are indeed the fabulous blue silk shoes. Thanks to you for getting them out of the closet!

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