I am breaking my resolve to step away from the blog. Please carry on to some other blog reading if you prefer lighter fare. May I suggest the Hyperbole and a Half blog, which never fails to make me laugh out loud. It’s too bad she posts so rarely, because I could use a good ol’ side-splitting belly laugh.
I am bogging myself down with worry and stress because of all the paperwork I have to get done that I really don’t want to do. A brief summary for your reading delight:
- I have to put together all the receipts for Jade’s medications purchased since April 1st and submit them to the Chronic Illness Program
- I have to fill out the Child Care Subsidy Application form, plus the Special Needs Application form (to be filled out by a medical doctor, I just noticed!), plus the Self-Employed Application form all to apply for a child care subsidy that I am convinced we will be denied, but that I have to apply for in order to be able to apply for other financial support (the one that allows us to have in-home care for Jade).
- I have to submit timesheets and invoices for four different care providers who have provided care for our home or for Jade since November, and there must be separate forms filled out for each individual for each month for each type of care, which means I have to fill out twelve forms, and that’s not even exaggerating.
- I have months and months of filing to do in order to get ready for doing taxes, which I dread. The filing AND the taxes.
And then there’s the thinking about stuff:
- Like the week of amazing vocal jazz workshops that I’d like to attend near the end of March, for which I really need Michael’s support… but I found out today that he’s going to be out of town during that week.
- Oh yes, and the ongoing saga of Jade’s middle ear fluid, which at last checkup, hadn’t yet cleared and in fact, her hearing was reduced.
- And I have to take her to see a visiting pediatrician tomorrow morning, with the appointment starting at the delightful hour of 8 a.m., which is just wonderful considering I have to somehow get Jade’s keto breakfast regimen of pills and vitamins into her before the appointment. The woman who called to book the appointment gave me absolutely no other choices.
- It has now been five months since we first had an inkling of Jade’s ear problem and she’s just getting to see a pediatrician. I haven’t a clue when she’ll be able to see an Ear, Nose, and Throat specialist, but when I tried to see if BC Children’s could see her sooner, I found out the earliest surgery date to have tubes put in (assuming we go that route) would be May. May!!! MAY before we can give her the best chance for learninga sense of balance?
- Jade’s ambulatory EEG that is supposed to happen in April apparently can’t be scheduled until June.
- Last week, while playing tag in sock feet, Jade slipped and fell and banged her mouth on the floor. Everything seemed okay the next day but now one of her front teeth is now turning gray and I’m afraid we’re going to have to have it removed.
- Halia’s cheeks were as red as apples and fiery hot all day today. I get to take her along to the pediatrician’s office tomorrow because Michael’s got an early-morning meeting, so can’t stay home with her until I get back with Jade.
- Things keep breaking. Why do things keep breaking?!
- I just realized that I should have phoned the audiologist to get a copy of the most rep0rt to take to the pediatrician tomorrow.
Wow, I didn’t even realize all the things I was stressed out about until I wrote them all down. And there are good things happening in my life. I know I have lots to feel lucky about. I do feel a bit better now, but just in case you made it this far and need some inoculation against all this stress, click here for pictures of rainbows and ponies.
And come back tomorrow and remind me to breathe, will ya?