It’s noon and I’m still in pajamas. Jade is at school. Halia smells of blueberry shampoo. I’m thinking about my rehearsal tonight, the gala dinner I’m playing music for tomorrow, the piano students I’ll be teaching right before that, the logistics of getting changed and over to the venue, the e-mails I have to send about the music showcases I organized last week…
When I quit my job in June, I was looking forward to a more balanced life. One where I could feel like I was doing a good job as a mother, but still have time to develop myself as a musician.
Blogging has taken a backseat because in the wake of shedding my employed life, a thousand music-related things have rushed in. I have never played so many gigs, attended so many workshops, organized so many shows, as I have in the past three months.
I’m not complaining, I’m just sort of stunned.
As I’ve been telling friends, I apparently still need to learn how to say no once in a while. I thought quitting my job was a huge “NO” to things that fill up my life, but I’m learning there are still NOs I need to say. I’m so excited to have all this good stuff happening to me, but still need to realize I can’t do it all. And after attending the BreakOut West conference this past weekend (Read about it here on my new music blog. As an aside, I feel like I have to find a new voice for that…) I am feeling I need to pick up the blogging ball again. I’ve missed it, you know.
So, raise your cup (coffee for me) and let’s drink to the idea of finding balance, finding the “right” mix of music and mothering. I might never achieve it, but I’ll give it my darndest.